Music Mondays: the Internet is dead, the Internet is gone

Getting back into blogging like I used to is a bit hard. Even though I still get a lot of wonderful, sweet comments and questions about my blog posts here, over the past few months I’ve heard several snippets of negativity about myself, my blog, my choice of blog post topics… and it’s definitely contributed to me drawing into myself and not really wanting to keep going. (This is not a call for sympathy, by the way! I’m just voicing a few thoughts I’ve been having.) Every time a Thursday came around, my head would flood with voices saying “ugh, Claire is so annoying, always chirpy and cheerful, it’s too much”. So I wouldn’t put anything up.

I don’t know where to go from here. After semi-forcing myself to put up a Life in Luxembourg update post earlier this week, I’m thinking of slowly easing myself back into regular blogging, with my usual music posts on Mondays, Things I Love Thursday posts on Thursdays, and the occasional round-up of photos on Sundays. However, at the same time, this doesn’t feel right. And it’s not just about the voices that criticise my tone of voice or my lighthearted content, it’s also me wanting a bit of a change after several years of blogging several times a week in the same “style”. I love the lists I create and the way I make some people feel with my blog posts, but I guess I don’t feel the same way I used to. I would love to write different things, for example, but if I can barely cope with feedback on lighthearted posts about things I’m grateful for, I doubt I’ll be comfortable with feedback on more hard-hitting topics. I constantly feel out of my comfort zone, and maybe that’s good, and I’m getting stronger because of that, but, I don’t know.

Maybe I should just write more about books, films, and food.

Today’s song is magical and smooth. Close your eyes and bob your head.

{ Lydia Ainsworth // Malachite }

{ The playlist }

4 thoughts on “Music Mondays: the Internet is dead, the Internet is gone

  1. sunny

    I totally get you. I think it’s normal and human to “change” and try out different things. Don’t force yourself. But please don’t take that negativity so seriously! I love your blog and the fact that you try to concentrate on the positive in this fucked up and ugly world. It always puts a smile on my face :)
    Interesting piece of music ;)

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    1. clairebonello Post author

      That’s very true – and I’m so grateful that you enjoy my cheerful blog :) Thanks so much :)

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  2. Corie Bratter

    Where did you hear these snippets? I love your blog – I discovered it randomly and it is one of my favorite one – so please continue blogging!

    For sure – everyone of us has preferences: I love when you post about places – food – Luxembourg, as this is my passion, but it doesn’t mean that when I found another type of post I unfollow your blog!

    Most of the people are just jealous!

    Corie

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    1. clairebonello Post author

      I heard them online and through friends… It sucks because I really shouldn’t let it get to me, but it’s easier said than done, and it’s really been bringing up a lot of self-doubt and confusion!
      But thanks SO MUCH for your lovely comments about my blog :) I’m so pleased you like it :) Yours is, of course, wonderful, and has introduced me to so many potential yummy places to eat!! I especially love your candid way of speaking about restaurants – it’s hilarious but very informative at the same time ;)

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